so where to start first of all if the this entry is crude and less eloquent than all the other it's not Bonnie that is writing this so don't assume that stress has messed with Bonnie's great writing ability
today I must say was a roller coaster waking up and getting Madelyn ready for surgery seeing her smile and grin at us was quite a reminder of trust she had in us and how our heavenly father cares even more for us than I can ever care for Madelyn. Leaving her in the hands of a young nurse who whisked her off to the operating table was almost more than Bonnie or I could handle but thank God for comfort and strength in times like this.
During the surgery I must say I felt guilty for not really feeling stressed the combination of the last couple of days of stress and business, peace kept us both pretty relaxed while waiting for the moment when the surgeon gently walked over and told us that our precious little Maddie had handled the surgery like a true trooper. How Awesome is that!!!!!
Seeing her roll past our waiting area and seeing her peace out on her stretcher was somewhat awkward since there were like ten people just standing there who for them is an everyday occurrence
The afternoon was a combination of feeling bored, helpless, or unuseful just watching her rubbing her head and left leg since it felt like every other part of her body had hoses or wires connected to it.
After supper we came back and she was more awake the nurses removed her breathing tube which was causing Madelyn much discomfort
I can't really describe the time following this for those of you who have met Madelyn know she has a healthy set of lungs
well you they didn't sound so healthy after this. Her throat was sore and her face was screaming but her cry just barely made it to our ears. Don't be mistaken everything about her body language was shouting I hurt all over Daddy I hurt all over

all I could do was hold Maddie's little head and talk gently in her ear comfort her and look helplessly over to the nurse who was doing her best to communicate to the Doctors that our little baby NEEDS more pain med.s the slightest bump of her bed set her off kicking and trying to cry which brought her more pain and discomfort
finally she got a higher dosage of Morphine which help her to sleep
later on when we went to see her she was resting peacefully and the Doctor reassured us she is the healthiest patient in the ward and that they plan to bottle feed her tonight some time and promote her to the next level up tomorrow morning

thank God for Uncle Don and Aunt Shirley who took us out for dessert and a break this evening when things were so intense a much needed moment of care for both Bonnie and myself

We thank God for all the blessing we have experienced today and the lessons he has taught us of Himself and trusting in Him
good night to you all